Friends Forever

I love the beginning 'Once upon a time'. And I hate 'Lived happily ever after' just as much. No offense meant to any of the brilliant fairy tales. In fact, those fairy tales are my sole inspirations during bleak times. But happily-ever-afters are really misleading.Pain and sorrow are an essential part of human life without which happiness and pleasure will have no meaning at all. And being a morbid freak, I think I accept pain (or would accept pain) just as readily as pleasure. Happily ever after isn't a conclusion or a destination, it is the journey. Happily ever after is not living happily with the ones you love forever, instead it is the faith or the knowledge that you won't be alone in your sorrow. And that's exactly what every human being yearns for. Everyone- including Boo Radley and Juliet Capulet.
The previous blog post was dedicated to M. M, I'm really sorry if I have hurt you with my tactless comments. But please acknowledge the fact that we are two different individuals. We might have many things in common but we do have certain important differences. And its perfectly alright if we do argue, because at the end of each argument, we would have found something new about each other that we didn't know before. When I argue with you, I am just providing a different take or view on a subject, I am not saying that you are wrong. I know I am not perfect and that I make mistakes. Also, I know that I make mistakes; so I would rather you tell me instead of agreeing with me when I'm making a stupid comment just in order to avoid an argument. But I still really do think you should read Austen.
As we go on, we'll remember
All the times we've had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We would still be, friends forever

Two Beings

Once upon a time, there were two girls. Both of them came from two different universes. They weren't similar. They were two different characters with some different dreams, hopes and ideals. But they shared a bond-a bond that was deep and true. Their similarities bound them close. Both of them loved cartoons and animes, UFO Baby, Orlando Bloom, Edward Cullen and an uncanny liking of making oinking noises over the telephone. They shared common passions, fetishes, goals, insecurities and fears. They didn't know what the future would bring, but they knew that no matter what happens, they will be there for each other. They were friends, and they loved each other, in the loosest sense of the term. Not just friends, they were companions, sisters.
Things go wrong. No matter how tricky you are, no matter how cunning it's impossible to elude the wretched, wretched thing that is conflict. One small word here, one snide remark there and suddenly before they knew they hadn't spoken with each other for weeks. They picked up their phones, and finished dialing the other's number before cutting the call. Unsent messages, mails that were written and deleted. They missed each other, but neither of them had the courage to admit it.
Then one day, one girl picks up the phone, swallows her pride and admitted to her friend that she missed her and what she could do to make it alright. And that was all that took. Three simple words that made even the most hurtful comments and wounds insignificant. For no matter what, they knew that they were friends, in the truest sense of the word. And more importantly, they knew forgiveness. The truth is, they loved each other.

Things go wrong.

I don't know why I am writing this. Frankly, I have no idea. What am I going to write? How am I even supposed to express myself? And why am I writing here, instead of my trusty journal which is not actually that trusty? The truth is, I don't know. I don't know how telephones actually work, or how birds fly. I don't know how and when things turned wrong. It was supposed to be perfect. I was with the ones I loved the most, my holiday plans were in full swing and nothing was left to be desired. But that's what I thought. Rule 1 of life- things go wrong. If you don't notice, they go really wrong.
I didn't notice. Maybe I couldn't. Actually, I still can't. I can still feel the laughter and comfort. Everything was right or at least, I believed it to be. But I was wrong. Worse- I didn't realize it. Maybe I had one laugh too many. Maybe I proved my loyalty to Austen in a wrong way. Where did I go wrong? More importantly, how do I mend it?
There were no signs- no lightning, or thunder or heavy rain. There was only silence. A silence so deep and impenetrable that it seemed to breathe for itself.A silent and sneaky monster, it reared its head, and in one breath destroyed something so valuable, cherished and loved. One card topples from a castle of cards and the entire structure comes tumbling down. All you can do is pick up the cards and build a new castle again. But what if you don't want to? What if the castle isn't what it used to be? What if the castle, that used to be a source of joy and escape has now turned into a frosty and biting ground? What if it hurts?
A person once told me that if you are meant to have something, then you will get it. But it is better to let go of a thing that hurts you. Maybe that's what I ought to do now. Because I know I don't deserve that hurt. And I very well know that I deserve a proper goodbye.